The Lucky Guy

I doubt u ever read this. I doubt if you do you’ll care. But when u were broken I was always there. I can not continue on. Pretending u are there, when I know u are not even breathing the same air. You tell me you are happy, then this without a doubt will be my last message. No more will ever sprout. I put yourself above me, I never made a move. Even though u did, I always protected you. We are not compatible, you will always choose yourself. Someday u will learn that isn’t how cards are dealt. Maybe u will grow up. Maybe you will see. Maybe u will crash and burn and return yourself to me. Regardless I am done. You have done struck out, it pains me to be the one who won’t continue your arrogant route. Good bye my friend, it’s cause I care, that you have seen the last of me.

Truth

I don’t pray for a great many things. In fact, most times I’m praying I’m being thankful for all the people and things I have. I always pray for my best friend, and thank god that I do have somebody who cares. I thank god for my family and my life, cause to be honest I’ve been blessed with both tragedies and miracles… But I would be lying if I said I didn’t want to share that with someone. Especially today. Even though this holiday is the only thing keeping florists alive, I still end up disliking it. Nobody likes to be alone, and I guess I wish that maybe I could make someone else feel less alone, and maybe they would return the favor.

Trust

I learned a while back not to trust anybody 100%. And today I’m reminded again that there’s no exception to this rule.

Sometimes you gain more by giving gifts to others. I took the most beautiful girl to the aquarium today and I had a blast. Angels deserve a good time too.

I felt loved by ppl not obligated to love me. I felt love. It’s the first time I felt anything other then rage and hate and regret for so long. I felt !

Want things to get better.

I don’t want a miracle. Just good karma.

I came upon a charm today
that I thought was lost. A reminder of what had used to be and now is replaced with loss.
A brother that was taken. Is my brother still. I know he watches over me. Grants me wisdom from his will. He sends me graceful angels. That teach me to believe search until u find it then pick it up and leave.